Dear Lennon,

I have a secret to share with you…

Don’t take this the wrong way, but while I was pregnant with you I was pretty certain you were a boy. I “thought” you were a boy, I “felt” like you were a boy, & I even dreamt that you were a boy. Don’t assume this means that I wanted a boy. I honestly didn’t care.

I know that sounds like such a “Mom” thing to say, but it’s the truth. I’ve never really understood parents wanting one gender over the other. Perhaps it stems from our struggle to get pregnant in the first place, but regardless of the origin it just didn’t matter to me. I just wanted a happy, healthy baby to snuggle ☺.

I think my belief that you were a boy was the natural reaction to already having a boy. When I was pregnant with Luke, I was a little intimidated by the idea of having a son. I grew up with two sisters. I was well versed in “girl.” I had no idea what I would do with a boy – what do they like? how do they communicate? what do they need emotionally? I had all sorts of questions like that. And then your brother arrived & those questions became irrelevant. It didn’t matter what “boys” liked, wanted, or needed. It only matter what Luke liked, wanted, or needed. So I learned to love trains, construction vehicles, musical instruments, & every animal under the sun. I loved learning to love all these “Luke” things. And so, I just kind of pictured myself with another boy. It’s all I had known as a Mom. It seemed natural.

Obviously, I was wrong. And I have never been so happy & excited to be wrong! I could not be more thrilled to have a daughter! I can’t wait to learn the things that Lennon will like, want, & need. I promise to expose you to as many experiences, interests, & hobbies as possible & let you decide what excites you. And no matter what those interests may be, I’ll be there – cheering you on & learning to love it right along with you!

One more thing – while I did think you were a boy, I secretly wished for a girl for Daddy’s sake. Daddy is a complete natural in the Daddy department – he makes my heart explode with love, respect, & admiration – but…the idea of having a daughter kind of intimidated him. I cannot wait to watch you prove him wrong. He’s already so smitten with you – he’s doomed. It’s going to be such fun to watch the two of you together.

Likes –

• I’ll give you one guess as to what your favorite thing is this week. Yup. Sleep. You still love, love, love to sleep. Keep it up, little dreamer!
• Other things you still like/love: your woombie, the mamaroo, & snuggling.

Dislikes –

• There really isn’t much you don’t like, little Miss. You definitely have a sweet, easy-going disposition. If I didn’t carry you around for 9 months & give birth to you, I’d have to question if you’re really mine!

Highlights –

• Stats from your 1 month check-up:
• Weight: 9 lbs. 1 oz. (40%)
• Height: 21.25″ (52%)
• Head Circumference: 14.5″ (55%)
• Clothes: Newborn
• Diapers: Newborn

One Month Photo —